Let me clarify, when I say a little crazy, I don’t mean that I can’t separate reality from fantasy or that I’m unsound, it’s more like I’m passionately preoccupied. But when my dieting affects my dreaming…it makes me stop to wonder what’s going on in that deep dark part of my subconscious. The part that controls most of my thoughts and actions may be working overtime.
Let me start by saying that on Thursday I reached my one month mark on my quest to lose weight. This is awesome for me, I’ve stayed with it and I have been 100% compliant on the program. But then came last night…
I ask you, who can resist having dinner with your husband, mom, brother and niece? And, since I’m the only one in the family watching what I eat, the dinner location wasn’t my choice…plus I love Chinese food. (Have I set out enough excuses to justify my decisions?) So what, you ask? I’m a big girl; I can make the right choices can’t I? We went to Yao’s Restaurant for dinner and it tasted fabulous (and even if you’re not a Chinese food fan you can understand the joy of eating a dinner that someone else has fixed instead of fixing it yourself)! But, I’m sure I wasn’t 100% compliant and today I feel sort of “puffy”. You know that feeling, the way you feel when you’ve held your nose closed and puffed out your cheeks so you look like a blowfish. Ok, maybe it’s not that bad but I can tell that I’m feeling “heavier” today. I was a relatively good girl and instead of ordering my usual fried rice and sesame chicken or Mongolian beef or pot stickers, I ate chicken and vegetables with lots of broccoli and no rice. But I did have the hot and sour soup (I’m allowed tofu so why not!) and I think it was the hot and sour soup that got me. I tasted so good and honestly I would have no problem eating a huge vat of the stuff. But in hindsight, I probably should have passed on the soup!
Now for the “crazy” part of the story: I bolted awake this morning feeling anxious and upset and wondered how I was going to confess my non-compliance to my coach, Joann and to my friends that are supporting me 24/7. I slowly realized that I wasn’t upset over the Chinese food I ate last night; I had dreamed I was at a fashion show sitting with lots of friends eating pretzels and popcorn. And I don’t mean the air popped, here’s a cup of healthy popcorn to enjoy. I mean shoveling that buttered popcorn in my mouth by bucketfuls and chasing it down with pretzels. (I didn’t dream about what I was drinking but just writing about this makes me thirsty.) So it was kind of a relief when I realized I dreamed the popcorn and pretzels binge! Crazy, huh!
However, since I don’t weigh until next Thursday, I think I’m good. I just have to make sure I stay 100% compliant for the next few days and stay focused on the end results. After all, for the month I’ve lost 13 pounds and 9 inches so it can’t be all bad!!!
Now my question to you…what kind of healthy recipes do you have to pass along to help me expand my “healthy cooking” repertoire?
Until next time…